John Masefield (1878–1967) had a long and productive writing life. He was the Poet Laureate from 1930 until his death, but today he is perhaps best known for his children’s stories.
His own childhood, though was far from happy. Masefield’s mother died giving birth to his sister when he was six years old and his father died soon afterwards. He did not get on with the aunt he lived with and he attended a boarding school at which he was unhappy.
It was his aunt who decided he should pursue a career in the merchant navy and he was sent to a training ship at the age of thirteen. It was during his time there that he discovered his love of poetry and storytelling, setting him on the path to becoming a well-known writer. He was never really healthy enough for a maritime career and he left the sea, with his first book of poems published in 1902.
This poignant poem about his mother is from 1912 and is deeply personal, the attitude to birth and death reflecting his own sad experience and sense of guilt. The view of women expressed here feels quite ahead of its time.
To His Mother, CLM by John Masefield
In the dark womb where I began
My mother’s life made me a man.
Through all the months of human birth
Her beauty fed my common earth.
I cannot see, nor breathe, nor stir,
But through the death of some of her.
Down in the darkness of the grave
She cannot see the life she gave.
For all her love, she cannot tell
Whether I use it ill or well,
Nor knock at dusty doors to find
Her beauty dusty in the mind.
If the grave’s gates could be undone,
She would not know her little son,
I am so grown. If we should meet,
She would pass by me in the street,
Unless my soul’s face let her see
My sense of what she did for me.
What have I done, or tried, or said
In thanks to that dear woman dead?
Men triumph over women still,
Men trample women’s rights at will.
And man’s lust roves the world untamed.
O grave, keep shut lest I be shamed.
What have I done to keep in mind
My debt to her and womankind?
What woman’s happier life repays
Her for those months of wretched days?
For all my mouthless body leeched
Ere Birth’s releasing hell was reached?
What have I done, or tried, or said
In thanks to that dear woman dead?
Men triumph over women still,
Men trample women’s rights at will.
And man’s lust roves the world untamed.
O grave, keep shut lest I be shamed.